I need to get this out of my system. This has become a growing concern of mine over the past few days, and tonight I cannot sleep because of it. I need to get it all out to take care of my mental and physical health.
Several points:
1. The few people who read this blog are most likely aware of where I work.
2. The few people who live in Ottawa and read this blog are most likely aware of the recent controversy about where I work.
3. The few people who know me apparently don't understand my personal code of ethics.
The "recent controversy" has greatly upset me. It makes me want to stand up on a soap-box and SCREAM. It is the same dialogue repeated by people who like to point fingers at an easy target. Those people who blindly demand change at the HS never demand change from the true sources of the problems:
1. The puppy and kitten mills;
2. The people who blindly purchase animals from puppy and kitten mills;
3. The people who blindly purchase animals from pet stores and backyard breeders;
4. The people who irresponsibly add to the numbers of unwanted pets;
5. The people who purchase pets yet don't seek reputable advice on the proper care for those animals;
6. The people who do not seek basic veterinary services for their pets;
7. The Municipality which does not deem the Spay and Neuter Clinic a priority;
8. The people who to this day continue to dump unwanted animals in the country, in parks, on the streets, or leave them abadoned in boxes, in carriers, in empty apartments and garbage dumpsters.
No, it's the organization whose mandate is to attempt to help these unwanted animals who gets the blame. He who weilds the mop is not always responsible for the spilled mess. It angers me that the people behind the controversy have done nothing but point fingers. I have seen no evidence that they have helped any other unwanted homeless animal. This, more than anything else, is what I find extremely disheartening.
But worse still have been my friends. I deal with a lot of horror on a daily basis. True horror. I don't discuss any of it with my non-coworker friends and acquaintances, because really, who wants to listen to that kind of thing? I'd rather be a positive, listening friend than a pessimistic, complaining one.
Over the past few weeks several friends have commented negatively on my work. That they believe in the myths instead of my word; that they interrupt my experiences and dedication with their assumptions... It really stings. I am shocked that you would think so little of me.
Perhaps I need this emotional stress to discover that I need to speak out about these issues. Perhaps I haven't been loud or proactive enough. Maybe I should tell my friends more about the phone calls I receive, the animals I see, the people I talk to. I've been silent when relatives allow their cat outside near a busy street; I kept quiet when my personal trainer purchased a puppy from a petstore known for selling puppies from mills; I haven't said a word when the woman down the street who can't afford emergency veterinary care for her cat gets more pets; I have minded my own business when people at the dog park repeat old fallacies. Perhaps this needs to change.
A coworker recently got the HS logo tattoo'd on her forearm. At first I thought her crazy. But now I'm beginning to realize I should emulate her bold statement. This is where I work, and I am proud of it. The policies and procedures mesh with my personal code of ethics. I have extreme confidence in my coworkers. I respect them for their dedication and unwaivering commitment to promoting animal welfare in our community. I hope that I can inspire the same respect in my friends and family.
Phew. Ok, I think I can sleep now.